I have way less self confidence then I will ever admit. I second guess my choices all the time. I'm way shy cause I'm terrified that someone wont like me because of who I really am. So if there is one good thing that has come out of my husband being deployed and living clear across the country from everyone that I know and being TOTALLY alone it would be that I have learned to love who I am and be confident in myself.
I have learned to take care of not only myself but two other little individuals. If something a little crazy happens I know that I will be able to handle it. I believe in myself now. I make choices for myself without having to call my mom or my sister. I TRUST my choices.
I know I still have a lot to work on but I have come a long way.
I really hope that I am able to teach my girls to be confident and love who they are. I hope they are independent and don't feel like they have to have a man to lean on and take care of them. Of course I want them to meet the man of their dreams and get married and live happily ever after, I just hope that they will always have that reassurance that if anything happened they know they could take care of themselves.
I don't want to feel like I depend on my husband for everything. I have started becoming my own person and I like it. I really want to go back to school some day. Who knows when that will happen though. I like having babies to much.
I must say one of the best boost of self confidence is knowing a lot of people said I couldn't do it on my own and proving them wrong. We are 9 months in and I'm still kicking and so are my kids!
Well that's my random post for the day. WOO.