Friday, February 17, 2012

Long Time

Oh Hey
Its been awhile and I'm sad that I have neglected my blog so much. But let me be honest, I'm taking care of 2 crazy girls completely on my own. No No I am DEFIANTLY not looking for sympathy.
It gets pretty difficult to do anything that requires more than one hand. I could type up a blog with one hand but that would most likely take all day. Oooh I have so much to talk about but that would take about 3239875 blog posts to fully catch up so I am just gonna start with where I'm at today and what's on my mind now.

First thing, OH how I love my girls. I will sit and watch them and basically burst out in tears cause I love them SO much I don't even know what to do with it all.

Ellie is such a little adult. She recently started preschool and loves it so much. She goes 2 days a week for 2 hours. Oh those 2 hours are so heavenly.

 Ellie is such a smarty pants it sort of grosses me out.. haha Teasin I'm totally jealous of how dang fast she picks up on things.

Nolah. OH my goodness she is getting so big. She is now 4 months old. She is rolling all over the place and scoots around.

She is getting 2 teeth and they are kicking our trash. I can't have anything within arms reach of her or its GONE. She is pretty quick at the grabbing.

Nolah is so infatuated with Ellie. She could sit and watch her all day. It is the best thing in the world to watch them together. Nolah is just DYING to get up and run around with her big sissy.

When we found out we were pregnant with Nolah and would be having her around the same time Jordon was deploying, I was devastated and angry. I didn't want to have a baby then. I had a hard time accepting it at first. But now oh my gosh it is such a blessing that I had her when I did. She has kept me so busy and between her and Ellie's snuggles I hardly ever get a chance to sit and feel sorry for myself.

But of course I defiantly still have my hard times. I will get in a really good spot, have an awesome routine going, making good choices and for the most part really really happy with everything. And then I hit a wall and everything falls apart. Everything will just feel super yucky and it just feels like I'm drowning really and I have to pick up the pieces and start over again. I hit a pretty big wall recently but I'm getting myself back on track. Trying to anyways. The thing that has defiantly helped me the most through this is church.. Oh my goodness there are soo many amazing people in my ward. I have found myself really CRAVING the gospel. Like I haven't been able to get enough of it and I just wish I could go to church ever day. I know that is how I should always feel but I dont know it's just different now.. I like it though and I hope it stays this way.

We have had a lot of challenges through this deployment that I never ever expected that we would have. Its been tough for sure. But we are making it. Sometimes I don't even understand how I'm staying afloat but we are totally doing it.